When people step up into another level, oh how easy it is to look down on the people behind them.

To have their noses so high up the sky, they can't see what's in front. Walking by faith takes on a new meaning.

Yes, the scenery is better 'up there', we can have a wider scope of view. However, at the same time, we no longer can as see clearly as we used to, the things which are going on 'down there'.

Great leaders, like Joe, simply walk down from where they are, to grasp the concept of a situation, go back up again to lead the people. Hence, people look up to such leaders.

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I HAD INSOMIA LAST NIGHT.

Insomias are a total waste of time, when you are physically lethargic yet mentally hyper. So all you can do is lie on your bed and think of unnecessary things.

Thousands of thoughts went through my mind.

I suddenly missed W389. Feel like I'm in the wilderness now. Gone is Joe's sheltering and shepherding. He's really selfless and sacrificed a lot for us. *RESPECT*

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Certainties disappear
What do we do for our dream to survive?
How do we keep all our passions alive,
As we used to do?

- Madonna's "You Must Love Me"

W389 - The Last Goodbye

 

 

Last service together. (A bit small =P)

Last cg together.

AND CHING WEI WEN IS NOT IN BOTH PICS.

After sticking together with him for 3.5 years, it's hard to part, but it's also TIME to part. Haha.

Great walking this journey with you since your Day 1 (when someone was SHY and quiet.) Never lose the passion ok? 

Thanks for all your stupid and cold jokes which somehow always crack me up.

By the way... You can still rant at me.

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I wanna give my deepest gratitude to Joe Peck as well. He brought me to new grounds and highlands, places I've never set my feet on.

He always believes in me. And he always ignores my "Huh Joe! I don't think I can..."s

I need more people like that in my life - people who totally ignore the pessimistic side of me. Permission to say "Shut up" in my face the next time you hear me rant and whine. =P

If Steph sees this, I'm sure she'll be the first to SHOUT that in my face.

Back to Joe, he inspires me to break through in many areas and do things I never thought I can. For that I'm really grateful to him.

He's a great leader. Fatherly... Funny... Passionate... Simple... and

SINGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL... GO JOE! =X

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What's up next?

HACK the Doubt

 

Sometimes it seems that people believe in me more than I believe in myself...

*..................*

People have been telling me "You can one la!!!"

Honestly, many times I doubt myself. But heck, I just do it anyway. I can be very rebellious to myself. =P

Someone once told me that "faith and doubt come hand in hand". The greater your faith... The greater your doubt.

Heck, what can be worse than pronouncing "kueh" instead of "key" for the word "quay" in front of the whole class and falling flat on my face on the sand pit during a long jump competition.

LOL...... So me right?

(Ok la... A lot of things can be worse than that lol...)

We are more than conquerors in Christ!!!

 

*Phew*

Thank goodness wed's orchestra prac went relatively well for me. I find myself becoming more calm + composed now playing cello alone... Probably kena tekaned too many times, become immuned now haha.

Be thankful for tekans.

Eric commented that I've improved too. Nice hearing it from him. Hehe. Wanna do the best I can.

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Went over to Garvin's house to practise keyboard with the guitarists... My first time combining with them (or any other guitarists) and I sure have lots of room for improvement. ("All of us start somewhere." Thx =P)

Lots lots...

So not used to playing without melody. And it seems funny to bang on the keyboard just to produce sounds.

Probably just need a little getting-used-to.

Mind's saturated now...

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And I really hate interruption when I'm playing.

*?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!*

OH man.................

?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Take a deep breath*

Peace...

 

The day after a holiday is always quite terrible.

Didn't do well for cello lesson today... Really hard to focus. Anyway teacher taught me "phantom" and "starwars", our orchestra pieces.

Will be a lone cellist for prac tmr... Hope I can survive.

Show you something...

A piano like you've never seen.

*Musicians gone mad.*

Anyway, always treat your instrument like your lover (but not vice versa =P) and always ask for permission prior touching someone else's.

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Realised something today. Steph and Elgin have been telling me the same thing.

Steph: Don't belittle yourself!!!         

Elgin: Don't look down on yourself.

Hmmmm... Ok. Problem with me is probably this - if I don't think I play VERY good, then I think I don't play well. Probably expect too much from myself......

Have to start telling myself this again  -> "If you're at Level 1, do your best at Level 1 first, before proceeding to Level 2."

Both of them also commented that the sound I produced on my instruments is very FLOATY. Hahahaha. Oh man... Probably too used to playing for myself and for the 4 walls that I don't dig in hard enough.

Perhaps it's because I'm always in my own world when I play music and the sound is probably a reflection of that... Or perhaps it's because I don't like too much tension on the strings... Feel painful for them lol...

Anyway, I think those are really good points which I have to take note and improve on.

I love holidays!

Went to Steph's house to learn keyboard from her in the morning. Things looked good so will probably be playing for zone's camp in June. *Leaping with excitement in my heart*

That would be a baby step towards my dream.

Went over to join my cg @ Sentosa after that.

The sun was present in full glory, think the water vapour couldn't even condense to form clouds.

A cancerously hot day.

W389 :) The rest of the girls weren't present!!! Saboooo lol...

Went for dinner @ Chinatown (very Joe LOL...), which would probably be my last dinner with them.

Tried to contain my tears as I walked home. Parting is difficult as we have to reel in the heavy anchor which attaches us to a place/person, carry it, and move on.

That's why we have to be strong. =P

ACJC enCOre

 

Went to watch ACJC's CO performance @ SCH with Elgin... Haven't heard CO pieces for years. Lol... But Cello is still the nicest sounding instrument in whatever orchestra hahaha.

(^;^)v

To my pleasant surprise, I saw my sec school's CO conductor's picture on a side of a wall.

Could have taken a better shot though. Lol... Glad that he's still playing in SCO!

After the concert... Think he looks great!

Anyway, I hope you can get over the red shoes soon.

Lol...

 

17 May 2008

Jared & Jerblinn's Matrimony!!!

It was like a zone meeting where the East and West finally merged as one. There was electricity in the air and everyone was excited + happy for the couple! Hehehe.

Some pictures to share... (Didn't manage to get the couple's pics though aiyo..)

My very good friends!

With Edmund our ZS

 

Xiao Lii and Cai!

Zone girls

 

Aww... Friends forever =P

My Madam forever!

And finally...

This is for Gary who thinks he looks so shuai in this pic...That he wanted me to crop myself out.

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4 more weddings to go... Lol... Fun fun.

 

Probably the best quotes for today are

1) "TIM TAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" by Angel in the office.

2) "Your scales have been improving week by week, the time I spend listening to it is shorter and shorter." by piano teacher.

(^;^)v

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No matter how constructive a comment is, I guess no one likes to hear it twice.

And it's frustrating when different people say the same thing to me, which make me go "I KNOW I know... I KNOW!!!" but only in my mind, so as not to appear unteachable.

Repetitive stories/sentences/sayings choke up my mind.

 

I hate to encounter a problem and feel totally helpless about it.

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A broken heart

Seeping with blood

Draining the life within.

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Whatever you can feel, God can heal.

Please be strong.

 

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Wanna promote DOZO Jap Restaurant!!!!!!!! Located at Valley Point Shopping Centre.

Think I'd rate it 5/5 lol... (Not becos I was hungry. Lol...)

Escargot with cheese and garlic

His seafood soup with a crab pincer as deco lol...

  My mushroom soup with a precious little piece of Truffle *!!!!!!!!!!*

His fish

My beef tenderloin on hot stone covered by crispy spaghetti, with little pebbles as deco lol... *!!!*

 

Warm chocolate cake with melted chocolate as filling + vanilla ice cream + 2 thin slices of white chocolate. The beverage above = mallow flower + apple + guava. *!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *

Great food, ambience, service and music! And nice company with his family!

(^;^)v

 

Today's orchestra prac was horrible for me. So felt like packing up and leave right there and then while 'playing' Phantom...... 'Playing' cos all along I was just trying to catch up and find the right notes... It was like squeezing an elephant through a HDB door.

-_- zZ

Playing music can be a torture. It's either all or nothing. It can either make my day or spoil it totally. Sigh.

Anyway, I shall not complain and just have to improve... Thanks guys for the encouragement. I needed that. :)

Sian... =( Just disappointed with myself...

A Fine Day

 

Wiu weet~

Woke up at 5.30am today!!! Felt like I've won something. Perhaps cos I woke up earlier than the Sun? Haha.

Think it'll be a great day!

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Let's talk about materialism.

(n) a desire for wealth and material possessions with little interest in ethical or spiritual matters

www.dictionary.com

From what I've observed (not factual), most materialistic people don't know that they are one. Probably cos they seem to need everything?

We live in a world of instant gratification. "I WANT IT AND I WANT IT NOW!!!" We don't like to wait too long for something.

For eg, when we pray for something and it doesn't happen like, the next day, do we forget about it or do we press on?

Playing music teaches me that there is NO shortcuts to achieve something great. We have to start from the very basic and take baby steps up.

Now you may think I'm digressing a lot. What has this gotta do with being materialistic?

It sure is ok to buy stuff and pamper yourself... (^;^)v However we gotta take a step back and ask "Am I actually trying to fill an empty void in my life?" To gain that temporary satisfaction by wanting to buy so many things.

while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

2 Corinthians 4:18

Gonna leave you with that... (Too much for an early morning lol)

Share your view!

 

-Thanks for believing with me.-

(Lazy to crop out 1cm on the right. hahahaha)

 

Had the most stressful piano lesson today. Teacher drilled on my worst section - scales. Said that my basic foundation is not there. =( Yup... So gotta practise from the very basic C MAJOR till I get my fingering right. =(

Exam is around 10 weeks away, which means 10 lessons away. Gotta maximize the quality of each lesson from now on... I.e gotta prepare well before each lesson.

Teacher has been giving me 10 extra minutes for almost every lesson. I really mustn't let her down.

(And Little Giant! Teacher mentioned about your sis. She passed Grade 8! Hehe.)

Thank God for good music teachers... Cello teacher is patient and encouraging. Piano teacher is not exactly patient and encouraging but she gives very constructive comments and pushes me a lot (i.e pressurizes me). Maybe cos she's a mum hehe.

A good teacher makes you love what you are doing, which in turn instills in you self-discipline and self-motivation (JJC motto: SDSM) to want to improve. Hope so. =P

Do what you love and love what you do.

(^;^)v

 

ANYONE GAME FOR VOLLEYBALL?

Play vball with my cg today and I realised I actually missed playing hehe. Skills have deteriorated though.

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Have to promote CIRQUE DU SOLEIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Know it's kinda random. Went to watch it when I was younger, they were simply incredible. Beautiful costumes and props with great gymnastic displays. Chanced upon it on YouTube earlier... And I totally love their circus songs!!!!!!!!!! (Though some are eerie)

Have their CD too!

Support support...

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Have a great weekend.